S T R E S S ~ ~ ~

This kind of life has been with me since 25th July, after that trip to Fraser Hill. I had never get enough rest since after that trip. Continuous labs at least half day or may be even whole day, continuous field trips almost every weekends, from Friday to Sunday. I'm having sore restless eyes now. Currently always fall asleep in the class, especially such an interesting Japanese Class. OMG!! I had to tell to you that this is the only weekend I'm free.. Next weekends I have to go to Sg. Lembing, Pahang to measure the width of the river, that's one of my jobs. I don't know what are the other stuff that the lecturers wanted us to do there. Next week I also have to pass up my proposal to my supervisor and a scientific paper for the subject "Scientific Communication". The next following week will be my proposal presentation week and also my Japanese mid sem exam. I always wanted to score my Japanese paper coz major papers are damn hard to score to me. I must study very hard this time and that week I'll have to go back to Fraser Hill to plant my species. High possibility have to fast together with them. I don't mind that actually coz I can still drink water but I'm already over stressed, I wish to get a rest by that time. I already can't afford to handle all these stresses accumulated since July. HELP ME!! I thought my supervisor will be considerate but I'm the one who tolerate with all these. I hate it!! Some more, my 2 coursemates have to go to help me. They have motion sickness and I'm so guilty coz they were asked to go to help me by our supervisor. I don't want them to go actually coz I have to see them feeling unwell, wanted to vomit but can't vomit. Argh!! I'm the culprit!! Shit!! I hate this feeling!! Buy candies and sour sour food for them but still the same.. Haiz!!

This is my LIFE!!

Oh no no no no... I'm living in the hell for few weeks d.. This is my life.. So packed!!

Monday 8am - 4pm lab work for thesis, no breakfast and no lunch, 4pm - 6pm class, back bath, dinner, do assignment, watch not even 1 episode's drama. Then sleep.

Tuesday 10am - 2pm class. 2pm-5pm soil labs. Extra time during lab will be my lab work for thesis. damn it!! no breakfast and lunch as well for today.

Wednesday 10am - 2pm class. I have Japanese hiragana test this week, means tomorrow. After that I still dunno I have to go lab or not coz dunno got transport back home or not. Still no breakfast and lunch probably.

Thursday 12pm - 5pm lab work for thesis. 5pm - 6pm class. No breakfast and lunch for today too.

Wey hey!! I'm already a super girl, I don't feel hungry at all even though I don't eat. I'm numb and I don't have feelings now except sleepy all d time and due to my busy-ness, I have a lot of pending works.

Pending works:
- proposal writing.. not even start yet (due this Friday)
- field work to Fraser Hill to plant all those bloody plants.. diu!! (this Friday-Sunday)
- field work to Tasik Chini.. I dunno what to do there, can i be exempted?!?! (next Friday-Sunday)
- my pending lab works (Existence of Mg, K, Ca and P; ketumpatan pukal, ketumpatan kumin - this stupid experiment fail and made me have to redo where I spent 5 hours to do this stupid idiot experiment on Monday this week)
- notes to be given to my direct junior still with me
- rental also forget to pay
- tuition fees not yet settled

And I have so forgetful recently.. I feel like I have more pending works but I dun remember..
!@#$%^&

How I wish I have 40 hours a day now.. I'm so sick.. Every single thing makes me hard to breath now.. Arghhh..... I wanna back home!! I miss my bros there~ ='(

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Well, nothing to write actually. A friend of mine asked me to remember this day - 30th March 2008 so just blogged it here..

Election Part 2

Ok, I'd like to show you guys the rubbish produced during Malaysia's General Election 2008..

Here it goes...

The very exaggerate look of bus stop with that very huge piece of rubbish..

Small pieces of rubbish everywhere on the grass..

Rubbishhh...

More rubbishhh...

And even more..
(Sorry this isn't clear.. Took while the car is running at around 60kmh..)

A very very huge one though..

That's it for the rubbish.. I'd like to share something with you guys other than rubbish.. =)

The "not-sure-guard-house-or-temporary-office-of-new-construction-base" is sticked with all the small party banners as if people blind, can't see or what..

The very exaggerate bus stand look..

The very messy look..

To me, it's really like 怕死人家看不见.. If people see your efficiency and effectiveness in solving problems, they'll sure vote for you. It's useless to stick and hang all these things coz this is really annoying and irritating, spoiled the clean-looking city.. So PLEASE COLLECT AND CLEAN UP THE MESS AFTER THE ELECTION..

P/S: I'm not intended to offend any parties in the pictures uploaded in any part of my blog.. And, I really think that these are unwanted rubbish produced which that you can actually minimize them.. Instead of WASTING MONEY, ENERGY, RESOURCES to produce all these rubbish, why not you guys save the environment to show the people that your party is a really efficient one?!?!

Road Construction

You can always see construction is everywhere when election is just around the corner. So here are the pics...

Destructing the road..



The tar..



Soon they gonna patch the road!!



Like this!! UGLY!!

Election Part 1

Well, d General Election is coming, and I really hate it!!

This small, clean-looking city where I live is now overwhelmed with the parties' banners, posters and flags which that they think is very beautiful!! *vomit* And for sure not only this city, most cities also having this ugly look.



When wind blows and rain falls, these small banners (whatever you called it coz I don't know what it calls) will fall onto the grass and turn into rubbish!! Really plenty of them on the roadside, but I don't manage to capture any to attach them here, see if it's possible these few days.

Besides, those abusive banners that insult opposition parties also can be seen everywhere. And there's a XXX party telling the public that "HARGA MINYAK TURUN, UNDILAH XXX" (if you want the price of oil to decrease, vote XXX party) how funny is this?!?!

*blank*

I don't know what's playing in my mind now. I don't know if I'm happy? Or that I'm sad? Or hurted? Or whatever.. I dun like people shouting at me, instructing me and etc even though those happen everyday at my home. Maybe I need your respects in the mean time that I respect you people? Or I'm now paying off my debt that I owed you people in my previous life? Or that I've got used to this way of life, and now I've numb towards it? But how come, and why I woke up all in a sudden, without any symptoms? I want somewhere that suits me better, some place that I belong to.. Sometimes, I feel like wanna escape, and even hide myself in a little corner, not wanting anyone to disturb me. I don't know if I'm doing right this way. So, I told myself to stand upright and face it!! Everything will be over.. 总有雨过天晴的一天..

Maybe I should hide myself, leave me alone!!

Fed Up!!

There's some particular reasons that made me so fed up with some irresponsible people, don't wanna mention who..

My dear coursemates, so sorry for always bothering u guys, asking u guys the same old question. But there's still no news for that, don't know how to tell u guys. Regretted for trusting people too much and ended up this way.. Really hopeless people!! Sigh~ Getting so much troubles for helping people.. Meaningless!!

Mid Autumn Festival

My previous residential college's Mid Autumn Festival Carnival had just over.. My house mates were there to sell some unique food, Maggi Pizza, have u guys heard of that before?? It's delicious~ Helped them out while eating for free.. LoLxXx~ Had loads of fun actually.. But hey, even all these had passed, I'm gonna sit for my Soil Science Mid Sem tomorrow in the afternoon.. Sienz~ Hope it won't be like the Quiz he gave us few weeks ago.. That was damn hard.. 70++ marks only I think I've got 5 marks like that.. So terrible.. Hope this time will be fine.. No relief man~

And, I'm not so happy with my dedication stuff, not sent to my dears by today, even that I've told the juniors and they said OK.. I shan't have trusted juniors~ Very bu dim!! Mooncakes for dedication also didn't promote to seniors, seniors wanna dedicate also don't know how.. Don't know what are they doing.. Lazy!! Besides, after this carnival, they were the ones who should tidy up the mess, but some of them didn't.. Instead, they were queuing up at the Labyrinth Haunted House there for free entrance.. Haiz~ Juniors are so worse.. =.=

But, it's undeniable that some of them working hard for this carnival.. Obviously, I can see them putting much efforts for it, squeezing their brain juice to overcome problems.. But, sad to say, that's not my direct, I wonder what is he doing.. Hmm...

Life..

When it comes to things that made you feel so frustrated, you may be blaming yourselves, why I didn't this and that rite?? But, there's no use crying over spilt milk. How much you have regretted won't change things that had happened, the decision that you had made. When you are trying to do something for someone's good, even for a party, when people don't appreciate it, after you've tried to explain (you did explain after all, to listen or not, to accept or not, that's something that you can't control), so why not you just let bygones be bygones?? It's their business after all, take it or leave it!! This is our so-called LIFE.. Problems come and go.. Things will sort out and be forgotten after that, slowly and naturally. Forgive and forget. Cheers, peoples~

I Hate Exam!!

My mid sem started since last Thursday, the 30th August) and it'll only end in another 2 weeks, on the 18th of September. Two papers down, still have 3 more, 1 not yet confirmed with the date yet. These three papers are very tough, too many things needed to be memorize.. Sigh~ Some more I always skipped class, day dreaming and sleeping in the class if I did attend class.. So not confident in these coming tests.. =.=||| Don't know why, those 2 papers that already passed I'm so confident, it's too easy to score but too easy to lose marks too.. Guess I'm doing alright.. Hope so at least.. =P

Whatever you're dreading, that's the things you must face!!
- quoted from Getting Over Getting Mad by Judy Ford.

So Do I~ I must enjoy and love my life like I always do =)

Deep in My Mind

It's been quite some time I didn't blog, due to my over laziness + busy life + infinite assignments. I'm off to field trip tomorrow.

Quite miss my younger brother, who is now in Curtin, Miri. Don't know how has he been there, because he always need people to worry 'bout him, remind him every single thing, just like a boy who hasn't grown up but I know he's already considered quite independent, compared to many friends of my age. None of my siblings will home sick.. (kinda pity our parents duh.. hehe..) He's still the lil boy in our eyes, at least in mine.

I never realized that I care for my brother so much until the day he got his right elbow fractured when Dad & Mum were on a vacation. And that was the time I realized that I really need someone to keep me company, especially during a blackout in the dark. I actually very rely on him, and I would wash his clothes with my bare hands when the water pump wasn't functioning, cooked for him even he complained a lot as he's a fussy eater, for the reason that his bone fractured, he should be taken care of. But I think deep in my heart, I really love and appreciate this naughty brother of mine. And maybe due to this reason, I treat my junior well, wanting him to get what he deserves to, care a lot for him, like he's my real younger brother even though he's few months elder than I am. People misunderstand but I never care 'bout that. They have their rights to voice out their thoughts, I can't control what others think of me. In fact, what others think of me is none of my business.

I miss you guys, my buddies!! I really appreciate and love everyone around me, ranging from my buddies, my blockmates, my seniors, my coursemates, my housemates, my relatives and my friends. Every single of them!! I don't know why, just can't tell why I have this kind of feeling, since when I have it.. It has been quite some time, maybe after my Matriculation. Separation is always sad. Hope that you guys are doing well, in anywhere, everywhere on Earth!! Blessed with love and happiness..